Monday, September 24, 2007
How much I never knew about your life. There was always such a generational divide between you and I. You were always an 'old' grandma and I guess I just didn't think to ask about your stories when you were well enough to tell them. But to listen to your sisters talk about the life they shared with you, it makes me reget not hearing it all first hand from you.
What a different experience your life was to mine. You, the eldest girl of 10 kids. The second mother really. Leaving school at grade 7 to stay home and help out. Hearing how much you loved your mother Serafina (i didn't even know her name but I love it now that i do). You must have been more than a daughter to her, more like a best friend. And to have 4 sisters and 5 brothers, I can't even imaging that! Then to only have my mom and Joey. I know you never got over loosing him. I'm so sorry for how you must have felt after he passed.
And now you're gone. Hopefully at peace. I hope you know how much you were loved. How much my mom loves you and was there for you at the end. That has to be the saddest thing for a daughter to watch her mother to go through. Now I have a glimpse as to what I hope to NEVER EVER go through. I love her deeply, maybe even deeper than she loved you and look what it did to her. I'm sad for me but mostly sad for her. and for grandpa. The eighties are like a return to infanthood and the quality of life is not very full unfortunately. I hope he finds moments of happiness and elation. I hope we all do. Please look after us all from above and lead up in the right way. We love you. I love you.